so far so good

 i told my therapist everything i discussed w/ J over the past few days (or the abridged version LOL) and she gave me some great advice. i am so grateful for her, this sounds delusional but i feel like we'd be IRL friends.

my sister's graduation party went well, it was low-key and fun but i drank too much and smoked too many cigarettes...sis was disappointed that i was smoking bc i told her i quit, which is almost true except i've been socially smoking on the rare occasion (e.g. i went to a club last week and bought a pack, and the remaining cigs from that pack were the ones i was smoking last nite). she'll probably snitch to our mom but w/e i didn't try very hard to conceal my smoking at the party.

i'm tired today. i made vague plans w/ my friends to go to the antique mall but i bailed due to not-quite-hungover-but-not-feeling-my-best. i've spent almost all day working on my ARG, which is a struggle as i suck at HTML and am currently working on the website portion. it could take me quite a while to finish the ARG, i have big plans for incorporating geocaching, youtube vids, IRL flyer promo and visual art. my sister's nerdy friends are into ARGs and gave me some great ideas when i hung out w/ them last nite.

i can't believe how relaxed and un-stressed i feel this summer, i'm like a whole new person tbh. i need to figure out a way to bring these good vibes with me when i return to teaching in september. ive got a lot on my plate and yet i'm feeling hopeful and motivated (today nonwithstanding, i'll be rotting on the couch playing tears of the kingdom for the rest of the day lmao)