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this morning my very first thought was "oh shit i told my mom i'd stop by today", which i guess is a good thing bc i probably would have forgotten otherwise. i had a REAL leisurely morning and walked over to her place. beautiful weather today.
when i walked into the dining room i noticed tea biscuits w/ jam and butter arranged all cutely on the table. i started calorie counting again 2 days ago and probably shouldn't have had any but i didn't have the heart to refuse mom's food. anyway they were mini biscuits :P the biscuits turned out to be a trap to lure my sister and i into the dining room (where my mom's computer desk is) so we could help her with some issues she's having with the ancestry.com site. helping her with technology of any kind is torture and she seemed rly frustrated, so i encouraged her to take a break and tackle the task (reviewing/updating info on family tree members) over the course of a few days rather than trying to finish it all today. she agreed, but made a weird remark later on abt how she thought sis and i would be more interested in our ancestry. we both sputtered that we are interested, we just didn't know that she wanted us to have a look at the site due to:
a) the family tree still being in progress, apparently
b) her clear frustration
it also seems weird to ask to browse around on the site when she's in the middle of a difficult task that she specifically asked for our help with??? i don't think any of what we were saying was clearly conveyed to mom but w/e it doesn't matter.
she spent the rest of the time on her phone while sis and i chatted. actually that's not true, she did ask about my lack of permanent contract at work AGAIN. i've explained to her several times now that early career teachers can expect a wait of upwards of 5 years for a permanent contract and i'm only in my second year. there's also a kerfuffle happening rn with our union, they're arguing with the school board about whether or not permanent teachers that were made redundant this year should be placed before the permanent teachers w/ part time contracts (who are supposed to be expanded into full time contracts based on seniority, which is now being interfered w/ by redundant and surplussed teacher in need of rehiring). all this is to say that the permanent job postings haven't even been released yet due to this issue, and they were supposed to be released in june.
mom knows all this. there is nothing further i can do to increase my chances, other than update my cover letter and work on my interview skills, which i'm already doing. i know C-PTSD fucks with her memory but she begged me to spend time with her consistently over the summer and i feel like we aren't rly spending time together. she watches tv/scrolls on her phone and doesn't talk to me. at this point i'm hoping that my literal presence is all she needs from me and that she'll be happy. i'll gladly come over once a week to catch up with my sis while occupying the same room as mom if that's what she wants.
after that, i babysat S.M. and we had a lovely afternoon. she's a great kid. i texted Kat to see if she'd like to bring her son to the pool w/ us because i though S.M. might like to have a kid her age to play with at the pool, and they know each other from school. they weren't available (which was fine bc S.M. was too tired after day camp to go swimming) so we did crafts and watched Mean Girls. her dad came home early and i headed home w/ a beautiful sunset behind me. J left for work and i had a snack and scrolled on tiktok.
i should probably go to bed soon. my upstairs neighbour has a university-aged (i assume) brother staying w/ him currently and he throws ragers nearly every night. i don't mind the noise but Lupe barks like crazy if she hears ppl near our door. tonight, a partygoer was hanging out in the foyer talking on the phone and it was so loud that it sounded like she was inside my apartment so i had to go out in my fluffy pink robe and (politely) chase her onto the front porch so Lupe would stop spazzing out.
i turned on the porch light for her and left the front door slightly ajar bc i didn't want it to lock behind her. unfortunately this started a bit of an argument! i guess her friend came to check on her and saw her missing from the foyer w/ the front door ajar and was worried that she drunkenly wandered off. she ran downstairs to look for her, saw her on the porch and started scolding her for being sloppy drunk and wandering away. the girl i spoke to tried in vain to explain to her friend that i had asked her to move to the porch so that her voice didn't carry, but her friend wasn't having any of it and kept calling her a hot mess while the girl protested that she knew her limits. it was annoying but also a bit heartwarming bc it reminded me of my wilder days. i wonder how many neighbours eavesdropped against their will on my drunken convos with my friends? how many were disturbed or woken up but let it slide because we reminded them of their younger selves? possibly none, but i'm betting at least a few and that i'm currently experiencing karma.
20-somethings are starting to look young to me, which is a clear sign that i'm getting old LMAO
when i walked into the dining room i noticed tea biscuits w/ jam and butter arranged all cutely on the table. i started calorie counting again 2 days ago and probably shouldn't have had any but i didn't have the heart to refuse mom's food. anyway they were mini biscuits :P the biscuits turned out to be a trap to lure my sister and i into the dining room (where my mom's computer desk is) so we could help her with some issues she's having with the ancestry.com site. helping her with technology of any kind is torture and she seemed rly frustrated, so i encouraged her to take a break and tackle the task (reviewing/updating info on family tree members) over the course of a few days rather than trying to finish it all today. she agreed, but made a weird remark later on abt how she thought sis and i would be more interested in our ancestry. we both sputtered that we are interested, we just didn't know that she wanted us to have a look at the site due to:
a) the family tree still being in progress, apparently
b) her clear frustration
it also seems weird to ask to browse around on the site when she's in the middle of a difficult task that she specifically asked for our help with??? i don't think any of what we were saying was clearly conveyed to mom but w/e it doesn't matter.
she spent the rest of the time on her phone while sis and i chatted. actually that's not true, she did ask about my lack of permanent contract at work AGAIN. i've explained to her several times now that early career teachers can expect a wait of upwards of 5 years for a permanent contract and i'm only in my second year. there's also a kerfuffle happening rn with our union, they're arguing with the school board about whether or not permanent teachers that were made redundant this year should be placed before the permanent teachers w/ part time contracts (who are supposed to be expanded into full time contracts based on seniority, which is now being interfered w/ by redundant and surplussed teacher in need of rehiring). all this is to say that the permanent job postings haven't even been released yet due to this issue, and they were supposed to be released in june.
mom knows all this. there is nothing further i can do to increase my chances, other than update my cover letter and work on my interview skills, which i'm already doing. i know C-PTSD fucks with her memory but she begged me to spend time with her consistently over the summer and i feel like we aren't rly spending time together. she watches tv/scrolls on her phone and doesn't talk to me. at this point i'm hoping that my literal presence is all she needs from me and that she'll be happy. i'll gladly come over once a week to catch up with my sis while occupying the same room as mom if that's what she wants.
after that, i babysat S.M. and we had a lovely afternoon. she's a great kid. i texted Kat to see if she'd like to bring her son to the pool w/ us because i though S.M. might like to have a kid her age to play with at the pool, and they know each other from school. they weren't available (which was fine bc S.M. was too tired after day camp to go swimming) so we did crafts and watched Mean Girls. her dad came home early and i headed home w/ a beautiful sunset behind me. J left for work and i had a snack and scrolled on tiktok.
i should probably go to bed soon. my upstairs neighbour has a university-aged (i assume) brother staying w/ him currently and he throws ragers nearly every night. i don't mind the noise but Lupe barks like crazy if she hears ppl near our door. tonight, a partygoer was hanging out in the foyer talking on the phone and it was so loud that it sounded like she was inside my apartment so i had to go out in my fluffy pink robe and (politely) chase her onto the front porch so Lupe would stop spazzing out.
i turned on the porch light for her and left the front door slightly ajar bc i didn't want it to lock behind her. unfortunately this started a bit of an argument! i guess her friend came to check on her and saw her missing from the foyer w/ the front door ajar and was worried that she drunkenly wandered off. she ran downstairs to look for her, saw her on the porch and started scolding her for being sloppy drunk and wandering away. the girl i spoke to tried in vain to explain to her friend that i had asked her to move to the porch so that her voice didn't carry, but her friend wasn't having any of it and kept calling her a hot mess while the girl protested that she knew her limits. it was annoying but also a bit heartwarming bc it reminded me of my wilder days. i wonder how many neighbours eavesdropped against their will on my drunken convos with my friends? how many were disturbed or woken up but let it slide because we reminded them of their younger selves? possibly none, but i'm betting at least a few and that i'm currently experiencing karma.
20-somethings are starting to look young to me, which is a clear sign that i'm getting old LMAO
