Work shit

[necco]

Can’t decide whether to resign from current contract at work or not. Student punched me in the face yesterday (autistic student in self-contained class, punched my left eye REAL hard but no serious damage) and last week my gr 8 language class was speaking/behaving so disrespectfully toward me that multiple students complained to VP. Same day that principal undermined me in front of my class. From what I’m hearing it’s like this everywhere but I’ve def taught at better schools so idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ I don’t think I can apply for another long term contract this year if I resign from my current one so I’d have to supply teach for the rest of the year. Less money but might be worth it? I’d lose my health insurance too tho and supply teaching is less stable/consistent. Stress leave is an option too but it feels too early in my career to go that route…..I know I sound crazy to my friends but I’m not burnt out yet and could probably stick it out till June, I just don’t WANT to lol 

i wish I had someone (ideally a like-minded teacher)I could talk to about my other concerns that have been swirling around in my head r.e. being a cog in a broken public education system that while underfunded, fundamentally flawed as a concept and corrupt is nevertheless where the majority of kids are held for 6 hours a day. I can take a beating (metaphorically LOL) and would if I thought that I was helping the kids I teach but I’m starting to question whether what I’m doing is helping given that I do so little actual teaching in a day. I even struggle to be there for the kids emotionally when so much of my time and energy is sucked up by managing student behaviour. Honestly, even if I had no impact at all, positive or negative, I could live with that but I’m starting to suspect that my presence is not even a net neutral and that I’m actively harming kids by supporting this school/school system

i say this with love but the majority of ppl who go into teaching are nerds who loved school so I’m finding that most of my colleagues don’t share my criticisms

(too much to say and out of time LOL will add more later)